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HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT.
The histories here recorded are similar in character to those given in
Appendix B of the previous volume.
HISTORY I.--C.D., clergyman, age, 34. Height about 5 ft. 8 in.
Weight, 8st. 8lb. Complexion, fair. Physical infirmities, very
myopic, tendency to consumption.
"My family is of old lineage on both sides. My parents were
normal and fairly healthy; but I consider that heredity, though
not vitiated, is somewhat overrefined, and there is a neuropathic
tendency, which has appeared in myself and in one or two other
members of the family. As a child, I suffered, though not very
frequently, from nocturnal enuresis. My sexual nature, though
normal, has been keenly alive and sensitive as far back as I can
remember; and as I look back I discern within myself in early
childhood what I now understand to be a decided masochistic or
passively algolagnic tendency. So far as I remember, this
manifested itself in me in two aspects; one psychic or
sentimental and free from carnality, expressing itself in
imaginative visions such as the following: I used, to imagine
myself kneeling before a young and beautiful woman and being
sentenced by her to some punishment, and even threatened with
death. At other times I would picture myself as a wounded soldier
watched over on his sickbed by queenly women. These visions
always included an imagination of something heroic in my own
personality. No doubt they were the same kind of dreamings as are
present in multitudes of imaginative children; they are only of
interest in so far as a sexual element was present; and that was
algolagnic in character.
"I had a small fund of natural common sense; and my surroundings
were not favorable to sentimental imaginings; consequently I
believe I began to throw them off at an early age, though the
temperament which produced them is still a part of my nature.
"On the carnal side, the sexual instinct was decidedly
algolagnic. Masturbation is one of my earliest recollections;
indeed, it was not at first, so far as I remember, associated
with any sexual ideas at all; but began as a reflex animal act. I
do not remember its first occurrence. It soon, however, became
associated in my mind with algolagnic excitement, giving rise to
reveries which took the ordinary form of imagining oneself
stripped and whipped, etc., by persons of the opposite sex. The
_dramatis personae_ in my own algolagnic reveries were elderly
women; somewhat strangely, I did not associate physical sexuality
at this period with young and attractive women. If scientific
light on these matters were generally available in the practical
bringing up of children, persons in charge of young children
might refrain from exciting an algolagnic tendency or doing
anything calculated to awake sexual emotions prematurely. In my
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