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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

less a legacy of sexual neurasthenia and a slight varicocele. My 

nocturnal pollutions were overfrequent; and I brooded over them, 

being too reticent and too much afraid of exposure at school and 

possible expulsion to confide in a doctor. Far better for me had 

I done so, for a few years later I received the truest kindness 

and sympathy in regard to sexual matters at the hands of more 

than one medical man. But while at school I was afraid to speak 

of the trouble which so unnerved and depressed me; and as a 

consequence my morbid fears grew stronger, being intensified by 

generalities which I met with from time to time in my reading on 

the subject of the punishment which nature metes out to impurity. 

 

"On leaving school my sex life continued for some years on the 

same lines: a struggle for chastity, morbid fears and regrets 

about the past, efforts to cope with the neurasthenia, and a 

haunting dread of coming insanity. These troubles were increased 

by my sedentary life. However I obtained medical aid, and put as 

good a face on matters as possible. 

 

"But the most trying thing of all has yet to be mentioned--the 

discovery that I had not yet got fully clear of the habit of 

masturbation. I had, indeed, repudiated it as far as my conscious 

waking moments were concerned, even though strongly impelled by 

sexual desire; but one night, about a year after I had 

relinquished the practice, I found myself again giving way to it 

in those moments between sleeping and waking when the will is 

only semiconscious. It was as if a race took place for 

wakefulness between my physical instinct, on the one side, and my 

moral sense and inhibitory nerves on the other; and very 

frequently the physical instinct won. This, perhaps, is not an 

uncommon experience, but it distressed me greatly; and I never 

felt safe from it until marriage. I resorted to various 

expedients to combat this tendency, at length having to tie 

myself in a certain position every night with a cord round my 

legs, so as to render it impossible to turn over upon my face. 

 

"In my early manhood the strain on my constitution was 

considerable from causes other than the sexual neurasthenia, 

which, indeed, I am now well aware I exaggerated in importance. 

Medical advisers whom I consulted in that period assured me that 

this was so; and, though at the time I often thought that they 

were concealing the real facts from me out of kindness, my own 

reading has since convinced me that they spoke nothing but 

scientific truth. 

 

"The years went on. I went through a university course, and in 

spite of my poor health took a good degree. The agony of my 

struggle for chastity seemed to come to a climax about four years 

later when for a long period, partly owing to overstudy and 

partly to the sexual strain, I fell into a condition of severe 


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