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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

nervous exhaustion, one of the most distressing symptoms of which 

was insomnia. The dreaded cloud of insanity seemed to come 

closer. I had to use alcohol freely at nights; and might by now 

have become a drunkard, had I not been casually--or I must say, 

Providentially--directed to the common sense plan of measuring my 

whisky in a dram glass; so that the alcohol could not steal a 

march upon me. 

 

"This period was one of acute mental suffering. One cause of the 

nervous tension was--as I have now no doubt--the need of healthy 

sexual intercourse. I proved this eventually. My circumstances, 

which had long been adverse to marriage, at length were shaped in 

that direction. I renewed acquaintance with a lady whom I had 

known well some years before; and our friendship ripened until, 

after much perplexity on my side, owing to the uncertainty of my 

health and prospects, I decided that it was right to speak. We 

were married after a few months; and I realized that I had gained 

an excellent wife. We did not come together sexually for some 

nights after marriage; but, having once tasted the pleasure of 

the marriage bed, I have to admit that, partly owing to ignorance 

of the hygiene of marriage, I was for some time rather 

unrestrained in conjugal relations, requiring intercourse as 

often as eight or nine times a month. This was not unnatural when 

one considers that I had now for the first time free access to a 

woman, after a long and weary struggle to preserve chastity. 

Married life, however, tends naturally--or did so in my case--to 

regulate desire; and when I began to understand the ethics and 

hygiene of sex, as I did a year or two after marriage, I was 

enabled to exercise increasing self-restraint. We are now sparing 

in our enjoyment of conjugal pleasure. We have had no children; 

and I attribute this chiefly to the remaining sexual weakness in 

myself.[220] But I may say that not only my sexual power, but my 

nerve-power and general health, were greatly improved by 

marriage; and though I have fallen back, the last year or two, 

into a poor state of health, the cause of this is probably 

overwork rather than anything to do with sex. Not but what it 

must be said that, had it not been for the juvenile masturbation 

superadded to a neuropathic temperament, my constitution would no 

doubt have endured the general strain of life better than it has 

done. The algolagnia, being one of the congenital conditions of 

my sexual instinct, must be considered fundamental, and certainly 

has not been eliminated. If I were to allow myself indulgence in 

algolagnic reveries they would even now excite me without 

difficulty; but I have systematically discouraged them, so that 

they give me little or no practical trouble. My erotic dreams, 


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