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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

HISTORY II.--A.B., married, good general health, dark hair, fair 

complexion, short-sighted, and below medium height. Parents both 

belong to healthy families, but the mother suffered from nerves 

during early years of married life, and the father, a very 

energetic and ambitious man, was cold, passionless, and 

unscrupulous. A.B. is the oldest child; two of the brothers and 

sisters are slightly abnormal, nervously. But, so far as is 

known, none of the family has ever been sexually abnormal. 

 

A.B. was a bright, intelligent child, though inclined to be 

melancholy (and in later years prone to self-analysis). At 

preparatory school was fairly forward in studies, at public 

school somewhat backward, at University suddenly took a liking to 

intellectual pursuits. Throughout he was slack at games. Has 

never been able to learn to swim from nervousness. Can whistle 

well. Has always been fond of reading, and would like to have 

been an author by profession. He married at 24, and has had two 

children, both of whom showed congenital physical abnormalities. 

 

Before the age of 7 or 8 A.B. can remember various trifling 

incidents. "One of the games I used to play with my sister," he 

writes, "consisted in pretending we were 'father and mother' and 

were relieving ourselves at the w.c. We would squat down in 

various parts of the room, prolong the simulated act, and talk. I 

do not remember what our conversation was about, nor whether I 

had an erection. I used also to make water from a balcony into 

the garden, and in other unusual places. 

 

"The first occasion on which I can recollect experiencing 

sensations or emotions similar in character to later and more 

developed feelings of desire was at the age of about 7 or 8, when 

I was a dayboy at a large school in a country town and absolutely 

innocent as to deed, thought, or knowledge. I fell in love with a 

boy with whom I was brought in contact in my class, about my own 

age. I remember thinking him pretty. He paid me no attention. I 

had no distinct desire, except a wish to be near him, to touch 

him, and to kiss him. I blushed if I suddenly saw him, and 

thought of him when absent and speculated on my chances of seeing 

him again. I was put into a state of high ecstasy when he invited 

me to join him and some friends one summer evening in a game of 

rounders. 

 

"At the age of 8 I was told by my father's groom where babies 

came from and how they were produced. (I already knew the 

difference in sexual organs, as my sister and I were bathed in 

the same room.) He told me no details about erection, semen, etc. 

Nor did he take any liberties with me. I used to notice him 

urinating; he used to push back the foreskin and I thought his 

penis large. 

 

"When about 8 years old the nursemaid told me that the boy at her 


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