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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

last place had intercourse with his sister. I thought it 

disgusting. About a year later I told the nurse I thought the 

story of Adam and Eve was not true and that when Eve gave Adam 

the apple he had intercourse with her and she was punished by 

having children. I don't know if I had thought this out, or if it 

had been suggested to me by others. This nurse used often to talk 

about my 'tassel.' 

 

"A family of several brothers went to the same school with me, 

and we used to indulge in dirty stories, chiefly, however, of the 

w.c. type rather than sexual. 

 

"When I was about 10 I learned much from my father's coachman. He 

used to talk about the girls he had had intercourse with, and how 

he would have liked this with my nursemaid. 

 

"A year later I went to a large day school. I think most of the 

boys, if not nearly all, were very ignorant and innocent in 

sexual matters. The only incident in this connection I can 

recollect is asking a boy to let me see his penis; he did so. 

 

"During the summer holidays, at a watering place I attended a 

theatrical performance and fell in love with a girl of about 12 

who acted a part. I bought a photograph of her, which I kept and 

kissed for several years after. About the same time I thought 

rather tenderly of a girl of my own age whose parents knew mine. 

I remember feeling that I should like to kiss her. Once I 

furtively touched her hair. 

 

"When I was 12 I was sent to a small preparatory boarding 

school, in the country. During the holidays I used to talk about 

sexual things with my father's footman. He must have told me a 

good deal. I used to have erections. One evening, when I was in 

bed and everyone else out (my mother and the children in the 

country) he came up to my room and tried to put his hand on my 

penis. I had been thinking of sexual matters and had an erection. 

I resisted, but he persisted, and when he succeeded in touching 

me I gave in. He then proceeded to masturbate me. I sank back, 

overcome by the pleasant sensation. He then stopped and I went on 

myself. In the meantime he had taken out his penis and 

masturbated himself before me until the orgasm occurred. I was 

disgusted at the sight of his large organ and the semen. He then 

left me. I could hardly sleep from excitement. I felt I had been 

initiated into a great and delightful mystery. 

 

"I at once fell into the habit of masturbation. It was some 

months before I could produce the orgasm; at about 13 a slight 

froth came; at about 14 a little semen. I do not know how 

frequently I did it--perhaps once or twice a week. I used to feel 

ashamed of myself afterward. I told the man I was doing it and he 

expressed surprise I had not known about it before he told me. He 

warned me to stop doing it or it would injure my health. I 

pretended later that I had stopped doing it. 


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