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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

There was a small piece of garden behind the house in which I had 

lodgings. My landlady suggested getting a cousin of hers, 

employed by a nurseryman, to supply me with plants, etc. He was a 

youth of about 16 or 17, tall, dark, not bad favored in looks. I 

forget how many times I saw him--not many, perhaps twice or 

thrice; but one day, when he came to see me in my room, about 

something connected with the garden, I gave him some old clothes 

of mine. He was a great deal taller than myself, and I suggested 

his trying on the trousers to see if they would fit. I do not 

know whether I made this suggestion with any ulterior motive or 

whether I had ever before thought of him in connection with any 

sexual relations. I only know that once more, as if guided by 

instinct, I felt he would not rebuff me, although certainly no 

indecent talk had ever taken place between us. I pretended to 

help him to pull up the trousers, and let my hand touch his 

penis. He did not resist; and I felt his penis for a few seconds. 

I then proposed he should come upstairs to my bedroom. No one was 

in the house. We went up. He did not at first have an erection. I 

asked why. He said 'because you are strange to me.' He then felt 

my penis. Eventually we mutually masturbated one another. I gave 

him half a crown. 

 

"Some short time afterward he came again to the house. On this 

occasion I attempted _fellatio_. I don't think I had at that time 

ever heard of such a practice. He said, however, he did not like 

it. He masturbated intercrurally. He said he had never done this 

before, although he had had girls. (The other boy also told me he 

had had girls.) 

 

"3. On another occasion I was out bicycling. A boy, of about 10 

years of age, offered me a bunch of violets for a penny. I told 

him I would give him a shilling to pick me a large bunch. I am 

not sure if I had any ulterior motive. He proceeded into a wood 

on the side of the road; I dismounted from my machine and 

followed him. He was a pretty, dark boy. He made water. I went up 

to him and asked him to let me feel his penis. He at once jumped 

away, and ran off shrieking. I was frightened, mounted my 

bicycle, and rode as fast as I could home. 

 

"There was no sentiment in the above cases. It is also to be 

noted that in neither instance did I make any arrangements to see 

the person again. As far as I can remember, when once I was 

satisfied I felt disgust for my act. In the case of women this 

was never so. 

 

"Two of the women described in the foregoing pages stand out 

above the others. Perhaps I have not sufficiently shown that in 

the cases of W.H. and S.H. I felt a considerable degree of 

_passion_. W.H. was the first woman with whom I had had 

intercourse; this invested her in my heart, with a peculiar 


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