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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

her _fiance_ that she was in my company a great deal; there was a 

meeting of the three of us--convened at his wish--at which she 

had formally, before him, to say 'good-bye' to me. Yet we still 

continued to meet and to have intercourse. 

 

"Then the date of her marriage drew near. She wrote me saying that 

she could not see me any more. I forced myself, however, on her, 

and our relations still continued. Her elder sister interviewed 

me and said she would inform the authorities unless I gave her 

up; a brother, too, came to see me and made a row. 

 

"I had what I seriously intended to be a last meeting with her. 

But after that she came up to London to see me, we went to a 

hotel together. We arranged to see one another again, but she did 

not write. I had now left the university. I heard she was 

married. 

 

"It was now four years since I had first had intercourse with a 

woman. During this time I was almost continually under the 

influence, either of a definite love affair or of a general 

lasciviousness and desire for intercourse with women. My 

character and life were naturally affected by this. My studies 

were interfered with; I had become extravagant and had run into 

debt. It is worthy of note that I had never up to this time 

considered the desirability of marriage. This was perhaps chiefly 

because I had no means to marry. But even in the midst of my 

affairs I always retained sufficient sense to criticise the moral 

and intellectual calibre of the women I loved, and I held strong 

views on the advisability of mental and moral sympathies and 

congenital tastes existing between people who married. In my 

amours I had hitherto found no intellectual equality or 

sympathies. My passion for D.C. was prompted by (1) the bond that 

sexual intercourse with a woman has nearly always produced in my 

feelings, (2) her physical beauty, (3) that she was sensual, (4) 

that she was a lady, (5) that she was young, (6) that she was not 

mercenary. It was kept alive by the obstacles in the way of my 

seeing her enough and by her engagement to another. 

 


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