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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

of me. She invited me to join her and her family for a part of 

the summer (I had now left the university, having obtained my 

degree in low honors) and I decided to join them. At this stage 

there began to impress itself on my mind the possibility that she 

cared for me; also the desirability, if that were so, of becoming 

engaged to her. I found my feelings became warmer. On several 

occasions we found ourselves alone. Then, one day, our talk 

became more personal, more tender; and I kissed her. I do 

recollect distinctly the thought flashing through my mind, as she 

allowed me to kiss her, that she was not after all the 

passionless and 'straight' girl I had thought. But the idea must 

have been a very temporary one; it did not return; she declared 

her love for me; and without any express 'proposal' on my part we 

walked home that afternoon mutually taking it for granted that we 

were engaged. I was happy, and calmly happy; proud and elated. 

 

"Circumstances now made it necessary for me to make money for 

myself and I was forced to enter a profession for which I had 

never felt any attraction; indeed, I had never considered the 

possibility of it, until I became engaged, and saw I must support 

myself if I were ever to marry. I worked hard, and rapidly 

improved my position. 

 

"I think I am correct in stating that from the day I became 

engaged my sexual troubles seemed to have ceased. My thoughts and 

passions were centred on one woman. We wrote to one another 

twice every week, and as far as I was concerned every thought and 

feeling I had I told her, and the receipt of her letters was for 

me the event of my life for nearly three years. My anxiety in 

connection with my work used up a great deal of my energy, and, 

although I looked forward to the time when I should have a woman 

at my side every night, my sexual desires were in abeyance. Nor 

did I feel any desire or temptation for other women. 

 

"I masturbated, but not frequently. Generally I did it to the 

accompaniment of images or scenes associated with my betrothed, 

sometimes the act was purely auto-erotic. My leisure time was 

devoted to reading. 

 

"On only one occasion did I have intercourse with a woman during 

my engagement (three years); it was with a girl whose 

acquaintance I had made at the university and who asked me to 

come to see her. 

 

"I married at the age of 24. Looking back on the early days of my 

married life it is now a matter of surprise to me that I was so 

far from exhibiting the transports of passion which since then 

have accompanied any intercourse with a new woman. Partly I was 

frightened of shocking her; partly my three years of comparative 

abstinence had chastened me. It was some weeks before I ever saw 

my wife entirely naked; I never touched her parts with my hand 


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