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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

for many months; and after the first few weeks I did not have 

intercourse with her frequently. 

 

"Perhaps this was to be expected. The basis of my affection for 

her had always been a moral or mental one rather than physical, 

although she was a handsome, well-made girl. Besides, money and 

other worries kept my thoughts busy, as well as struggles to make 

both ends meet. 

 

"Indeed, I may say my sexual nature seemed to be dying out. When 

I had been married less than six months I discovered that sexual 

intercourse with my wife no longer meant what sexual intercourse 

used to mean--no excitement or exaltation or ecstasy. My wife 

perhaps contributed to this by her attitude. She confessed 

afterward to me that for the first week or so she positively 

dreaded bedtime, so physically painful was intercourse to her; 

that it was many weeks, if not months, before she experienced the 

orgasm. For the first year and more of marriage she could not 

endure touching my penis. This at first disappointed me; then 

annoyed and finally almost disgusted me. 

 

"Later on, she learned to experience the orgasm. But she was very 

undemonstrative during the act, and it was seldom that the orgasm 

occurred simultaneously; she took a much longer time. 

 

"I ceased to think about sexual matters. When I had been married 

about three years I was aware that, in my case, marriage meant 

the loss of all mad ecstasy in the act. I knew that if I had no 

work to do, and plenty of money, and temptation came my way, I 

should like to have another woman. But there was no particular 

woman to enchain my fancy and I did not have time or money or 

inclination to hunt for one. 

 

"At times I masturbated. Sometimes I did this to the 

accompaniment of homosexual desires or memories of the past. Then 

I got my wife to masturbate me. 

 

"About four years after marriage I got a woman from Piccadilly 

Circus to do _fellatio_. I had never had this done before. She 

did not do it genuinely, but used her fingers. 

 

"As stated above various anxieties, the fact that I could always 

satisfy my physical desires, all served to calm me. I was also 

interested in my work and had become ambitious to improve my 

position and was very energetic. 

 

"On the whole, notwithstanding money worries, the first four or 

five years of my married life were the happiest in my life. 

Certainly I was very free from sexual desires; and the general 

effect of marriage was to make me economical, energetic, 

ambitious, and unselfish. I was certainly overworked. I seldom 

got to bed before 1 or 2; my meals were irregular; and I became 

worried and nervous. At the beginning of my fifth year of married 

life I got run down, and had a severe illness, and at one time my 

life was in danger, but I had a fairly rapid convalescence. 


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