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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

"My illness was critical, in more senses than one. My 

convalescence was accompanied by a remarkable recrudescence of my 

sexual feelings. I will trace this in detail: 1. As I got 

well--but while still in bed--I found myself experiencing, almost 

continually, violent erections. These were at first of an 

auto-erotic character, and I masturbated myself, thus gaining 

relief to my nerves. 2. I also found my thoughts tending toward 

sexual images, and I felt a desire toward my nurse. I first 

became conscious of this when I noticed that I experienced an 

erection during the time that she was washing me. I mentioned the 

matter to my doctor, who told me not to worry, and said the 

symptoms were usual in the circumstances. 3. When I got up and 

about I found myself desiring very keenly to have intercourse 

with my wife. I can almost say that I felt more sexually excited 

than I had done for four or five years. As soon, however, as I 

had had intercourse with my wife a few times I felt my desire 

toward her cease. 4. My thoughts now centered on having a woman 

to do _fellatio_, and as soon as I was well enough to go out I 

got a prostitute to do this. 

 

"Just before I was ill my wife had a child, which was born with 

more than one abnormality. No doubt the shock and worry caused by 

this got me into a low state and predisposed me to my illness. 

But the consequences were farther reaching still. The child 

underwent an operation, and my wife had to take her away into the 

country for nearly six weeks, so as to give her better air. I was 

left alone in London, for the first time since my marriage. The 

worry in connection with the child, and the heavy expense, served 

to keep me nervously upset after I had apparently recovered 

physically from the illness. Once more I found myself thinking 

about women. As an additional factor in the situation I became 

friendly with an old college-chum whom I had not seen much of for 

many years. He lived the life of a fashionable young bachelor and 

was at the time keeping a woman. The only common interest between 

us was women. I found myself reverting to the old condition of 

rampant lust that had been such a curse to me in my university 

days. Some books he lent me had a decided effect. They gave me 

erections; and it was on top of the excitement thus engendered 

that one day I got a woman to do _fellatio_, as already 

mentioned. Moreover, since my illness, I found all my previous 

energy and ambition had gone. 

 

"I have stated that I was in London alone with two servants. The 

housemaid was a young girl; nice looking, with beautiful eyes and 

a sensual expression. She had been with us for about a year. I 

cannot remember when I first thought of her in a sexual way. But 

one evening I suddenly felt a desire for her. I talked to her; I 


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