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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

flattered myself I had passed a summer's night with that most 

young men would envy, showed signs of changing, like some siren, 

into a flabby, blear-eyed boozer. That hurt my vanity. 

 

"I met her another night and she took, me to her lodgings, and I 

slept with her all night. I no longer tried to stop her drinking, 

but drank with her. I ceased to treat her with courtesy and 

gallantry; she noticed it, but only drank the more, drank till 

she became dirty in her ways, till her good looks vanished. I 

left her, too drunk to stand, as some friend, a woman, called on 

her. 

 

"She came to see me once more, like her old self, so well dressed 

and well behaved, and chatted so cheerfully to my landlady that 

the latter afterward congratulated me on having such a friend. 

Dolly carried a parcel of underclothing she had made, with a few 

toys, for the children of a poor man in the suburbs, and I 

accompanied her to the house. There was great excitement among 

the ragged children; in fact, the atmosphere became so 

dangerously full of love and charity that I commenced to feel 

uncomfortable,--the shower of roses again,--and was glad to find 

myself in the open air. We went for a walk and had several 

drinks, which made the usual change in Dolly. I got tired of her, 

determined I would leave her, spoke cruelly, and finally--after 

having connection with her on the dry seaweed--rose and left her 

brutally, walked away faster and faster, deaf to her 

remonstrances, and careless whether or how she reached the 

station.... 

 

"I had gone to lodge with a family whom I had been accustomed to 

visit as a friend; there were two daughters; the elder, engaged 

to a young German who was away with a survey party, had a rather 

plain face, but a strong one and was herself a strong character, 

and I came to like her in spite of myself; the second girl had 

light golden hair, a fresh complexion, a short nose, and rather 

large mouth, which contained beautiful teeth; they were both 

good, obedient, innocent church-going daughters. As there was 

plenty of amusement there of an evening, singing and dancing, I 

did not go out, got into better ways, and gradually gave up 

drinking to excess. I was so improved in appearance that an old 

acquaintance did not recognize me. My anecdotes and fun amused 

Mrs. S., the mother of the girls. She could be very violent on 

occasions, I found, and I learned that there had been terrible 

scenes at times, and that from time to time it had been necessary 

to place her in an asylum. I went for drives with the girls and 

to theatres, and ought to have been happy and glad to find myself 

in such good quarters. The mother trusted me so entirely that she 

left me for hours with the girls, the younger one of whom I would 

kiss sometimes. She was engaged to a young fellow whom I spoke to 


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