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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

vanity in some way, and made me feel curious and restless. I 

found myself thinking of her after I left and looking back I saw 

she was still looking at me. 

 

"To make a long story short, she encouraged me. It ended by my 

leaving the S. family and going to board with them. T.D., the 

husband, was glad of my company and my money. They had a little 

boy--whose father T. was not. I soon understood her inviting 

looks at me. For she was a general lover, and an old man, in a 

good government billet, visited her often when T.D. was away: I 

will call him Silenus. There was also a dark, handsome man who 

built organs. The latter came one day and sent for some beer. I 

was working in my room, and it so happened that before he knocked 

she had been going further than usual in her talk with me; in 

fact, as good as giving me the word. When her friend was admitted 

he had to pass my open door and he gave me a look with his black 

eyes and I gave him a look which told each what the other's game 

was. It is wonderful what a lot can be learned from a single 

glance of the eyes. When I saw the little boy bringing in the 

beer I felt that he had bested me. But she brought me in a glass 

first, and putting her down on the sofa I scored first. It was 

done so suddenly, so brutally, that, accustomed as she must have 

been to such scenes she turned red and bit her under lip. But she 

sent the other man away in a few minutes. After that she was 

insatiable; it was every day and sometimes twice in one day. I 

commenced to be gloomy and miserable again. And there was not 

even a pretense of love. There was no deception about her; she 

even introduced me to Silenus and we made excursions together, 

for which he paid, as he had plenty of money. We were always 

drinking, until at last I could eat nothing unless I had two or 

three whiskies. I became very thin, my horizon seemed black and 

all things at an end. (But T.D. enjoyed his meals and was really 

fond of his wife and her boy and his work; life was pleasant to 

him.) She would go up to town with me and to a certain hotel; 

after drinking she would leave me waiting while she retired with 

the handsome young landlord for a short time. She told me when 

she came back that he was a great favorite with married women. 

 

"She told me that Silenus visited a woman who practiced 

_fellatio_ on him. Mrs. D. thought such practices abominable and 

could not imagine how a woman could like doing such a thing. 

 

 


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