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PREFACE
TOUCH-1
TOUCH-2
TOUCH-3 (begin)
TOUCH-3 (end)
TOUCH-4 (begin)
TOUCH-4 (end)
SMELL-1
SMELL-2
SMELL-3.1
SMELL-3.2
SMELL-3.3
SMELL-3.4
SMELL-3.5
SMELL-4 (begin)
SMELL-4 (end)
SMELL-5
HEARING-1
HEARING-2
HEARING-3
VISION-1.1
VISION-1.2
VISION-1.3
VISION-2.1
VISION-2.2
VISION-2.3
VISION-2.4
VISION-3
VISION-4
VISION-5
APPENDIX A
APPENDIX B HISTORY-1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.2
APPENDIX B HISTORY-2.3
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.1
APPENDIX B HISTORY-3.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

aged about 12. On my expressing surprise I was told she was used 

to it and noticed nothing. But in the morning I turned my head 

and looked at her, and even in the dim light of that dirty 

bedroom I could see that her eyes had noticed and understood. She 

pressed herself against me and smiled; it was not the smile of an 

infant. I could record many instances I have observed of the 

precocity of children. 

 

"At one time I made the acquaintance of three young men, two in 

the customs, the other in a surveyor's office. At the first 

glance you would have said they were ordinary nice young clerks, 

but on becoming better acquainted you would notice certain 

peculiarities, a looseness of mouth, a restless, nervous 

inquietude of manner, an indescribable gleam of the eye. They 

were very fond of performing and singing at amateur minstrel 

shows and developed a certain comic vein they thought original, 

though it reminded me of professional corner-men. However, I 

enjoyed their singing and drinking habits and went to their 

lodgings several nights to play cards, drink beer, and tell funny 

stories. One night they asked me to stay all night and on going 

to a room with two beds I was told to have one. Presently one of 

the young men came in and commenced to undress. But before going 

to his bed he made a remark which, though I had been drinking, 

opened my eyes. I told him to shut up and go to bed, speaking 

firmly and rather coldly, and he went reluctantly to his own bed. 

But another night when they had shifted their lodgings and were 

all sleeping in the same room I was drunk and went to bed with 

the same fair-haired young man. On waking up in the night I found 

my bedmate tampering with me. The old force came over me and I 

abused him, but refused to commit the crime he wanted me to. His 

penis was small and pointed. I rose early in the morning, 

sobered, suffering, and covered with shame, and went hastily 

away, refusing to stay for breakfast. I thought I caught an 

amazed and evil smile on the faces of the other two. Meeting the 

three the same evening in the street, I passed them blushing, and 

my bedmate of the previous night blushed also.... 

 

"I now took cheap lodgings in North Adelaide. Here I had slight 

recurrences of the strangeness and fear of going mad which I had 

experienced once before. I led such a solitary life and fell into 

such a queer state that I turned to religion and attended church 

regularly. It was approaching the time for those young men and 

women who wished to be confirmed to prepare themselves, and a 

struggle now ensued between my pride and my wish to gain rest and 

peace of mind in Jesus. I was self-conscious to an incredible 

degree, and dreaded exposure or making an exhibition of myself, 


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